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Hidden Brook Farm Dressage Schooling Show - June 2, 2019

Ellie and I did a show at our lesson barn this past weekend instead of taking a lesson.  I would have done a lesson on Saturday before the show, but my instructor went to NEDA Spring with her eldest daughter, who was able to get her last Grand Prix score for her USDF Gold Medal!!!  So that is a good reason to not be able to lesson haha.

I admit I was a little bummed about our low scores at the SMDA show two weeks prior.  I know a score of 6 (60%) is called satisfactory, but I really thought our performance was better than a low 60%.
I was determined to ride well and even though Beth was not there, I had her youngest daughter as my back up if the wheels fell off the bus LOL!  She was already in the warmup and at the show ring with her actual students, so it was nice to have her there to remind me to breathe and not hang on the left rein!  ;-)
Ellie unloaded and was totally calm.  Honestly, she loves her lesson barn and knows it is her second home haha.  She was much calmer tied to the tra…

"New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings."

How true is this saying!  I realize that posting about divorce, my dog dying, and my horse having to be put down is pretty sad stuff. 


Losing my dog and horse was incredibly difficult and still makes me tear up at times.  I miss them both every single day.  My divorce was difficult but for very different reasons.  It is something I should have done years earlier, but I was too afraid for a variety of reasons. Suffice it to say that the eight months after I left were some of my lowest points, but not because I grieved the end of my marriage.  That was the best thing that I ever found the courage to do. 

I'm not going to get personal here on my blog, but it took a while to get my life on track.  I stayed focused on what I wanted in life and worked my butt off to get there.  I put my kiddo first in everything I did.  I spent as much time as I possibly could enjoying my horses, thankful I was able to keep them in my life at all.  Losing my horses was my biggest fear about getting a divorce, to be honest.

I didn't want to date, and I didn't even think anyone would ever be interested in me.  I kept to myself and focused on my future.  I signed up for a dating site and then totally regretted that decision LOL!  Too many creepy men out there!  

Of course, sometimes life works out in crazy ways.  Sometimes the person you are meant to be with ends up being someone you NEVER EVER would have guessed.  I suppose I should never regret any of my struggles, because had I not moved to this area of the state for my first marriage back in 2003, I never would have been in a position to know the person I would end up with now in 2016.

I know, I know, this is all very vague, but basically I decided to allow my heart to love again and it has been wonderful!  More about that all later...


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