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She's Not a Baby Anymore!

Early spring saw some immediate changes in how Ellie carried herself and our dressage work started to truly improve.  There had been times last year where flat work felt like a fight and I wondered to myself if she was ever going to just relax and listen to me haha.

Thankfully, as the title suggests, Ellie has suddenly grown up in front of my eyes.  We have had some really stellar lessons lately, where I feel like I am suddenly able to make things click.  We also had an incredibly frustrating dressage lesson a few weeks ago where Ellie was in rip-roaring peeing heat (not normal for her) and we worked through 45 minutes of her refusing to bend right.  So, ya know, as much as she is improving, she is still an opinionated redheaded mare!  ;-)

But, I have to give her credit because she is really working her little butt off for me!  Sadly, I had not been able to schedule in a jump lesson before our first three-phase, which led to me riding her ridiculously backward at a slow trot the entire …

"New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings."

How true is this saying!  I realize that posting about divorce, my dog dying, and my horse having to be put down is pretty sad stuff. 


Losing my dog and horse was incredibly difficult and still makes me tear up at times.  I miss them both every single day.  My divorce was difficult but for very different reasons.  It is something I should have done years earlier, but I was too afraid for a variety of reasons. Suffice it to say that the eight months after I left were some of my lowest points, but not because I grieved the end of my marriage.  That was the best thing that I ever found the courage to do. 

I'm not going to get personal here on my blog, but it took a while to get my life on track.  I stayed focused on what I wanted in life and worked my butt off to get there.  I put my kiddo first in everything I did.  I spent as much time as I possibly could enjoying my horses, thankful I was able to keep them in my life at all.  Losing my horses was my biggest fear about getting a divorce, to be honest.

I didn't want to date, and I didn't even think anyone would ever be interested in me.  I kept to myself and focused on my future.  I signed up for a dating site and then totally regretted that decision LOL!  Too many creepy men out there!  

Of course, sometimes life works out in crazy ways.  Sometimes the person you are meant to be with ends up being someone you NEVER EVER would have guessed.  I suppose I should never regret any of my struggles, because had I not moved to this area of the state for my first marriage back in 2003, I never would have been in a position to know the person I would end up with now in 2016.

I know, I know, this is all very vague, but basically I decided to allow my heart to love again and it has been wonderful!  More about that all later...


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